So sitting here this afternoon I am thinking that this is going to be my last blog for 2015.
What a year this has been, if you told me a year ago how things would be this year, I would probably have thought you were smoking something pretty serious! A year ago this time I was finishing off my contract due to retrenchment and I had absolutely no
idea what I was going to do….. seriously worried and trying to juggle all the festive season stress and deadlines.
Now fast forward to today, I am sitting here super relaxed, happy and content. My whole life has changed this year and it was a freaking roller coaster ride! Lots and lots of tears, lots and lots of worry, lots and lots of growing. But looking back now I feel so grateful for this ride. I can truly say that I have made one of the biggest decisions of my life, I decided to follow my heart for the first time ever. I decided to stop worrying about what I ‘should’ be doing and start focusing on what my Soul wants me to do. Focusing on what makes me happy! Focusing on what makes me want to get up in the morning!
It was a lot of hard work, hours and hours of studying, book upon book of reading and learning, but it was fun and I forgot how much I loved learning! I got so stuck in my comfy comfort zone, so getting chucked out in the cold was a big wake up call. But a good one.
So I guess this blog has to be about thanking the Universe for all that has happened in 2015.
Thank You Universe
Thank you for letting me worry about forgiveness.
Thank you for letting me learn that forgiving myself is the first step to loving myself.
Thank you for letting me be hard on myself.
Thank you for letting me learn that being gentle on myself is the second step to loving myself.
Thank you for letting me have a shitty attitude.
Thank you for letting me learn that I can change this and everything then feels much easier.
Thank you for letting me be scared.
Thank you for letting me learn that being scared does not help me one ounce.
Thank you for letting me not use my voice.
Thank you for letting me learn that the world needs to hear my own authentic voice.
Thank you for letting me have problems with people.
Thank you for letting me learn how to love and forgive them and myself.
Thank you for letting me not trust.
Thank you for letting me learn that trusting you is the only way any of this can ever work.
Thank you for letting me struggle to accept myself.
Thank you for letting me learn that loving myself is why I am here.
So may 2016 be an even bigger adventure than 2015 and I hope the same will be true for you!
Have a beautiful holiday time with your families and I will be back and sparkling even brighter in 2016.
Lots of love