I have just returned from the most mind blowing weekend retreat.
What made this one so different from the others is that I came back home a different person….
Now usually when myself and my partner Natasha work with groups at retreats, there are a lot of giving. When doing this type of healing and work that we have on our retreats it can be quite an exhausting task, you give a lot emotionally and energetically and one always need time to recover afterwards.
But this weekend was really different and I realised that it had so much to do with my own personal journey since our retreat in May this year. After my return from Egypt end of March, I was ready to take on the world and standing in my power to do the healing work and share the love needed to facilitate the journey of healing for others. Even in our June retreat it was all about giving to the people that we worked with. Then July and August my months of super introspection and work with myself happened and something changed within me.
I started this weekend retreat off pretty much feeling in the same space (or shall I say thinking I was in that same space of giving) and then as our sessions progressed I realised something was different, something did not feel the same as before… And I realised it was me! During the past few months I have been working intensely with the concept of surrender and letting things be – not trying to control or direct anything.
And this weekend it all started making sense why these lessons and teachings of the past two months appeared in my life.
All of a sudden spending three hours healing people felt so different… Instead of this being work and taking it’s toll on me emotionally and spiritually it felt like flow, everything just flowed and on Saturday after our long and intense healing sessions I walked out with a skip in my step. Ready for the rest of the sessions and basically buzzing with life. I totally felt the entire concept of being a channel for the work of Divine Spirit. None of this has anything to do with me and should not be affecting me on a physical or emotional level, all of it is just flowing through me to the person that I am working with.
And then another thing struck me, because of us allowing flow to happen all of a sudden the collective energy of the work embraced this too. I was so astounded by this and in this I too received my own healing, so many things made sense to me and through the giving there I was also freely receiving and loving it.
I just surrendered into this whole process and it was beautiful and I thank the Universe for focusing my attention on surrendering for the last two months… It has changed me for the better!