The Week 22 – Ski School

I am currently on holiday with my partner Rob and our boy Ben.  We are in France, in a beautiful little town called La Rossiere.  And we are skiing….

So now for those that know me – I have a bit of a track record – and mainly a very bad one with skiing i.e. I don’t do skiing! This is now the third time that I am trying to get bitten by the bug. Rob is forever going on about his love for skiing and how he can’t wait for us all to enjoy this wonderful activity together. We decided to wait until Ben was old enough to enjoy – so he is now 7 and both of us were booked into Ski School this week. To say I was nervous was an understatement of note!!!  But I had to put my big girl panties on and for the sake of my boy man up and look excited about this new adventure.

Day 1 went pretty okay for me, the instructor was pretty patient as me and my two fellow learners fell around and nervously tried to get going on the snow. The only downer of the day was me in tears by the end of the 2,5 hour session with my feet burning like hell.  I sucked it up though and went out in the afternoon with Ben and Rob to ski around on the nursery slopes.  Then day 2 started and I slowly started falling behind the class, I am definitely a slow learner and someone who has to try things multiple times to bring my confidence up. My instructor being a not so patient man started getting rather annoyed with me after a while and after my second really bad fall going down the slope whilst trying to turn he benched me and continued the lesson with the other two learners.  Needless to say I was gutted and when I returned home after the lesson had a fat cry and was wondering if I should be giving up considering that I am just not getting this right and my teacher seems to think I am not going to keep up.

Rob being the ever patient and analytical person that he is – sat me down, meticulously explained exactly how you should do turns on the snow and then started discussing strategy with me for the next day and lesson. He also took me back to the nursery slope in the afternoon and spent time encouraging me and coaching me. He also gave me a big lecture about not letting my instructor treat me like he did – reminding me that I am a complete beginner and that this was hard to learn. My inner child was really playing out at this point in time and I spent half the night up wondering if I could really survive the next day.

Day 3 and with a heavy heart I put on the horrible ski boots and headed for class. Another set of learners and an instructor joined us the day before and another lady was really having a hard time getting this skiing thing too – so after another set of unsuccessful turns I put my foot down and told my instructor that I want to join the other instructor and the struggling lady as I was not confident enough to continue onto the slopes. Needless to say he was very annoyed with me but my strategic discussion with Rob inspired me to stand up and put my foot down. And ‘viola’ I was now joining the new instructor and the struggling lady. What a difference it made, a kind and super patient young man who made us go up and down the practice run for two hours, showing us the kiddies airplane moves to explain the turning concept, lots of giggling and laughing happened but what also happened was two women turning successfully on the slopes, confidence building and a great step in the right direction.

This just made me realise that sometimes we need to nurture that inner child, the one that screams and cries and throws tantrums because we can’t get it right, go back to behaving like a child, make those awesome airplane moves, be gentle and kind and patient with yourself. I also realised that my inner child is a stroppy one, but that is also okay, I now know that I need to make her feel comfortable and safe because otherwise I will never be skiing down those big slopes.

So today Day 5 and I am skiing down green runs, talking to myself a lot, words of encouragement and also repeating, repeating, repeating. Because that is how I learn and even though I am way slower than the other guys, I am doing it and for the first time in 9 years I am loving it.

Here is to the first of many more ski holidays to come. I love the fact that at nearly 40 years of age I decided to put my fear on the chair, jump in and climb this mountain and ski down it. And in this process I learnt so much about me and about how I handle difficult situations, thank you Universe for this opportunity. I never cease to be amazed at all the learning opportunities for us, even on holiday!

Much love and Happy Easter!
Yoli xxx

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The Week 21 – Harmony

That moment when things change….

Sunday before last, was a beautiful sunny morning, my partner Rob was participating in the Cape Town Cycle Race and my son and I were heading to the beach with the grandparents and then the first text arrived…  He had been in a crash and a bit banged up, I ring him and no answer, so now I wonder is he ok…. Worry, worry, worry.  Then a few minutes later the phone rings and I hear sirens in the background and his voice sounding all over the place.  On his way to hospital but he is fine.  Me not convinced.  Few hours later and lots of waiting and worrying – it is a broken collar bone, some badly messed up ribs and a concussion and he has to go into surgery.

So that was my morning! Oh and I had to find a car parked somewhere in Cape Town and find a lost bike too.

So that just made me think about how we live our lives in comfortably planned ways and then everything gets turned upside down by one incident.

Then I read the beautiful quote posted above and the first part just totally got me: Unexpected things were always going to happen but the only control you have is how you choose to handle it.  And that was the big lesson I had to learn over the last two weeks.

My life is pretty awesome on a normal day, I am blessed with a partner that pulls his weight and does tons for me and our son. Then he gets hurt and incapacitated and life pretty much changes in an instant. And my carefully planned schedule and lovely routine that I thrive on is chucked out the window. And then just to make sure I really, really learn my lesson the universe will let lots and lots of other things go wrong too, delayed flights etc etc.

So that is when you read the above quote and you go – righto that is so meant for me!

And then once again I realise how I every day have to learn to function on both levels – my awesome spiritual level but also here on my beautiful earthly plane. I can’t just constantly escape into my spiritualism – I have this wonderful third dimensional existence that I also need to embrace and live. I chose to be here, I chose to create this life and I chose to live it. So what else to do but embrace it and mix it in with my connection with the Divine. This in turn leads to me being so much more grounded and calm and then when I get faced with the sh*t hitting the fan in the world around me – I consciously choose to respond to it with courage, humour and grace!

Yours in balance and harmony
Yoli xxxx

PS:  Rob is much better and healing nicely and being properly appreciated for his amazing contribution to our daily lives xxx

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The Week 20 – Past Lives

So in my job every day I get to explore in the beautiful Akashic Records and find out for my clients what it is that is holding them back, what it is that makes them make those negative choices or feel those unwanted fears and how this is linked to past lives.

It is something that I do every day and that I totally understand and it all makes sense to me and it is really something that I know works, understanding and removing that negative energy is the starting point for making big changes in your life.

And then as I go through life I also have issues and become aware of my own choices and fears and I know a lot of these are present life issues but then there are those past life issues that I know and that I can feel. And for me going into the Akashic Records for myself just does not work, because we as people when it comes to ourselves have a much less objective view about things, we prefer to see what we want to see. So in life for me it is easy to look at other people’s issues for them and make them aware but for myself I find this extremely hard.

So I have been walking around for a few weeks with this niggling feeling that I need to clear some stuff for myself, that I need to somehow try and figure out what it is all about.  And then my guides just seem to send me to the right place at the right time where I meet someone who also works with past lives the same as I do and she is in the country for a week from Germany on holiday and she can help me. Well how lucky is that then, or shall I just stop giggling and thank my guides for putting me there.

So I met this amazingly interesting lady who had been doing this same work for more than 30 years now and totally understanding why it is so hard for me to do my own reading. So I managed to see her before she left this week and exactly as I had suspected a whole bunch of things came up, things that I am now ready to hear and that I was not ready to hear 2 years ago when I started this journey. So hooray for divine timing and hooray for our Higher Selves knowing when the timing is right for us to heal from more intense experiences.

I managed to pin point a lot of my choices and behaviours and linked them back to my reading with this lady and now the journey starts, I have already started with the required Reiki to help the letting go process. I have also figured out that I really need to start approaching my own healing in a very practical way as that is what my personality type really requires. Simple and plain step by step elements to deal with fixing myself.

I am excited for the next few months of integrating all this, I am excited for taking responsibility again for my choices and the consequences that I create and for changing my old habits now that I understand where they stem from.

Life is beautiful!
Yoli xxx

 

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